
In real life, I just graduated with a second masters degree but I keep dreaming that I am stuck in school with an assignment that I haven’t finished so in this stream, I was back in grad school, except my grad school look like my high school and I met this girl who I wasn’t actually that interested in, but I’ve been single for so long in real life that I just like went with it and I’m gay. I’m a girl that’s gay so I met this girl and we were like snuggling and holding hands and like being very PDA which I’m not usually that way when I’m in relationships in front of like my family and they were like making comments about how you know, we were cute together cause they were trying to be polite, but I internally was feeling very like uncomfortable because I actually didn’t like this person that much and so I was like kind of embarrassed that they were seeing us together and she was just like super cuddly, but so was I and then she kept like not wanting to go home so she was staying and she’s kind of weird like kind of a nerd you know and at one point, I saw her facial expression change like almost like she was being like just going along with it and I like stopped and got up from like kissing her or whatever and I was like are you OK like you can go home whenever you want to like I was being like polite and kind about it in my dream that’s what I felt and she was like yeah I think I need to go home and of course I wanted to like honor those feelings and I was glad that she did that but I felt a pain of like abandonment and like even though it wasn’t someone I was super interested in I felt really uncomfortable with the fact that she actually wasn’t interested in me either so then I went to and this is taking place in my childhood home in my childhood bedroom and then I went to apparently what was my apartment which was like a loft, an artist type of loft in New York City, where I used to live, but my college roommate was there, and I went to college in Ohio and we haven’t talked in many many years like since I was in college probably and she was like kind of mad at me Ish like like wanted me to move out I think which is interesting cause it’s in college. We lived in a co-op and she was pretty radical and I was kind of too but also I had like a job that had a lot of responsibility and like friends who weren’t a part of the social justice stuff that we were doing and she’s sort of resented the fact that I wasn’t like all in and she felt like I should move out of the collective, not like overly, but I just got a sense that our relationship shifted, and then one of our mutual friends actually said that to me like why did I still live there so in the dream it was more of like a big artist loft with like tall ceilings and a lot of open space and we were organizing an event just like we used to do in our in our house in college like documentary screenings and you know house concerts, and things like that and you know informational talks whatever we used to do that so we were organizing some event and it was gonna be like her performing a dance and I didn’t know what song cause I wasn’t part of the group that was like organizing it. I guess cause I had been gone for a while and then I came back to the apartment where I still have my room and they were just like continuing to do stuff without me and so I was sitting in the audience. It was taking me a long time because I couldn’t find like the outfit that I wanted to wear like I kept searching through all my things and I couldn’t find like the right clothes and so I like they already had a bunch of like folding chairs set up and a bunch of people were there just like people from the college and stuff even though our college was actually in a small town and this one was in New York, so a bunch of people were there like friends and stuff and you know just people that wanted to be part of the event and apparently it was gonna be like Lisa was gonna be singing and then there’s gonna be like talks and speeches and stuff. I don’t know. Lisa was very particular about like how she wanted this to go and she kept talking about the tape player like the cassette player and how no one was supposed to touch it cause it was set up to be exactly the song that she wanted it to be at like the time she wanted to start and I pulled up a folding chair or like a stacking chair because most of the chairs were full and so I was trying to be sort of out-of-the-way, but while I was putting the chair down, I accidentally bumped the cassette player and it started playing and she was so mad because it was supposed to start at the exact time she wanted to and she wasn’t ready to perform yet she was like limp syncing it I guess and so I was like I’m sorry it’s it’s my fault. I bumped it. You know I’m gonna rewind it for you and she was mad because it wasn’t gonna be exactly the right thing but we tried anyway and I wound it and then she did a performance of the song rock lobster by the B-52’s, which was very surprising which was a very surprising choice and afterwards she was like I could kill the person that did that and I was like well Lisa, it was me so I’m really sorry and I know I keep disappointing you but it was actually an accident and she just kind of made a sound like she was really furious and walked away and then I started touring different apartments and someone was trying to rent out the basement as a unit and I was like not unless you like furnish it and make it finished cause I’m not gonna live in a place that just like brick walls and then I also was like well. Is it even legal for you guys to rent a basement unit without windows and they were very bothered by that so I started riding my bike around town and then it kind of felt like a video game like it was really hard to like not hit different obstacles stuff. It also seemed like this part of the city we were in was pretty dangerous like there were drug deals and things happening and like not a lot of people and not a lot of street lights and it just made me fairly really nervous cause it was at night time so I went back to the apartment and went into my room for the rest of the event and hoped for the best
This vivid dream seems to reflect a combination of your current life transitions, emotional states, and past experiences intertwining with your subconscious. Let's break down the key elements:
Stuck in School and Unfinished Assignments:
Grad School Metaphor with High School Setting:
Uninterested Romantic Encounter and PDA:
Nerdy Partner and Feeling Uncomfortable:
Transition to Artist Loft and College Roommate Conflict:
Event Organization and Tape Player Incident:
Searching for the Right Outfit:
Touring Apartments and Safety Concerns:
Video Game-Like Obstacles:
Overall Interpretation: Your dream amalgamates a tension between past and future, signifying a phase of transition where achievement meets expectation anxieties. It reflects a yearning for authentic connections, a fear of repeating past discomforts, and the pressure of choosing the right paths in life after education. The dream suggests reconciling with past relationships, embracing your successes, and searching for avenues to express your true self without fearing judgment or the unknown.